Affirmations: How to Welcome Positive Change into Your Life

     (Authors note: Yes, I left you at a cliff hanger back in April! I'm so sorry. Turns out I started talking a couple of months before I learned enough to begin. I'll finish telling you about True North Health Center soon.)

      Today we address the age old question, "How can I get what I want if I don't know what it is?"
       It's easy to define what we don't want. That's how the human brain is wired.  To survive, we needed to avoid the dangerous, not run to the joyful. But now my brain lives safely in Union, Kentucky. I do need the sense to come in out of the rain, but more than that, I need to get guidance on living a satisfying, fulfilling life.
      To put it into context, I'd rather not wait in a long line, but do I know how to be content while standing there?
      This all came up because last week I had a great opportunity (or should I say, challenge). I use a meditation program called Holosync. Since I'm not an audiologist or a neuroscience specialist, I'll let them explain the process. "You listen with stereo headphones or ear buds, sitting comfortably with closed eyes (or, if you prefer, you may lie down). Each time you listen, Holosync stimulates a part of each brain hemisphere called the olivary nucleus, taking you into the brainwaves of deep meditation."
      I've had a meditation practice for years, but this takes it to a whole new level. One of the things that they offer is to add custom subliminal affirmations to the recordings. I said "yes, please!" Then realized I had no idea how to come up with affirmations global enough to listen to all day.
     The short affirmations that go with a reiki healing attunement, those I help clients create all the time. Oh, and the ones that help movement based solutions to persistent problems. Oh, yeah, I also teach creating affirmations for reiki grids. How could this be so hard?
     Of course, I went to Mr. Google for help. So many websites, so little help. 10 affirmations for the perfect life. 101 affirmations for your liver. Relationship affirmations for the lonely. It was like taking my 5'3" body into a one size fits all store. All of the suggestions just fell flat. Then I remembered a book I read back in 1999.
       Change Your Brain, Change Your Life by Dr. Daniel Amen came to the rescue again. Dr. Amen's One Page Miracle.  This link will take you to the form you can download. It's such a valuable tool.
       I first filled it out in a journal in 1999. What a different person I was then. I do it periodically when it starts to feel like my life doesn't fit anymore.
      When I did an elongated version two weeks ago I realized my big mistake. Somehow with my boys leaving home for college and jobs and my husband's increased travel schedule, I suddenly decided that I should be in charge of everything. Even the things well outside my scope, like health issues, job losses, and any range of other acts of God.
       Now I am a powerful woman, but I can't change the weather yet. Some things (yes, many things) are outside of my scope. The most important affirmation I came up with was around trusting. Trusting God (or insert your favorite term for a higher power here) that things will be taken care of, that it will all work out, somehow. At the time of this writing I can't find my notes, so please by all means, write your own version of trust. And hope. And love. Create the world you want to live in. It's better than you think.

Here's a video of how to make the grid to power your affirmations-

Physician, Heal Thyself

Okay, okay, you got me. I am so not a physician. My last biology class was in high school. But it made such a snappy title. I’m about to go to California for some serious deep healing that I’d like to share. Not just for my regular readers, but also for those who are trying to decide about the healing center. I read every blog, watched every YouTube video before making the decision to head west. I hope this helps someone the way that others helped me.To make my decision to go so far away and spend so much money comprehensible, let me give you a little bit of my back story.

When I first got into alternative healing methods, it was as a patient. I needed help. In 2001, I went down the allopathic (MD) route. Lots of drugs, physical therapy, doctor bills, culminating in a shot in the neck. Nothing changed except my bank account. So I began going regularly to my chiropractor and practicing yoga and meditation. I still hurt all the time, but I could function.

I learned enough yoga that I began to teach. The interesting thing was that it kept me mobile, but I never really progressed and it didn’t fix whatever was causing the pain. I was a very good yoga teacher. If the student had the capacity, I could teach them anything. Not that I could demonstrate any of it, but I could talk you through it. The only bad classes I had were when I went with my preset plan rather than creating a class as I taught, basing it on the students who were there.

Still, though, I remained a constant at the chiropractor's office. Though it was not a role I’d choose, I was definitely his retirement plan. Over the years I tried eight different doctors searching for the best fit. The guy I see now really works for me, but unfortunately, since the adjustments never hold, he was just really expensive aspirin. Temporary pain relief. Darn it.

When I found reiki, I thought I’d found the answer. Starting to work at the Victory of Light festival made me realize that it was only part of the solution. Here was a large group of healers, using many modalities, and most were unhappy, unwell, or both. The few who were satisfied with their lives offered great insight. They all came to healing because they needed it, so I was not an anomaly.

Over the years I have done countless hours of reiki and other healing techniques on myself and my clients. I’ve learned and taught lots of other techniques. All helped on the surface. But there was some underlying cause that I just couldn't fix. It just kept getting worse.

It all came to a head about 2 years ago. My body was so bad that I had to stop teaching yoga, could no longer lift heavy things, no more gardening. Every time I tried to do a long walk, not to mention beginning run, I hurt myself. No kidding. I’d get about a quarter of a mile from the house then something would start screaming “If you keep this up, I’m becoming a serious injury.” My bones were so out of place the repetitive motion caused soft tissue damage that lasted weeks, from only that short distance. The worst thing was that the rest of me was completely healthy. I’d become a (mostly) vegan four years earlier. Any problems I had (mostly digestive) slowly cleared up. It felt like I had this amazingly healthy body covered by a malfunctioning exoskeleton. Crazy, right?

And yes, I got depressed. 47 is not the age to stop living, but that’s how it felt. All the obvious physical solutions had failed, so I needed to accommodate spiritually. I didn’t want to be a complainer, so I didn’t tell anyone except one friend. I’m sure it was painfully obvious to my friends and family, but in my pride I cried alone. Turns out, I picked the right person to tell. She offered me four bits of advice to find my own solution and two of them really worked for me.

First thing in the morning I lay in bed and rather than meditate or pray (which is what I always used to do) I imagine I’m God’s messenger, delivering miracles. I start with the people I’m praying for, then move on to let miracles rain down from heaven across the whole world. It totally changes the prayer. Rather than worrying about people as I pray for them, I’m giving help while remaining unattached. It’s great fun. Who wouldn’t want to work for the Big Guy?

The other suggestion that really works is setting aside a specific meditation time where I just hang out with God. I chose 2pm because I usually want a break then. I pull out my zafu or lay down on the floor (depending on how my back etc. feel) and spend twenty minutes with the Lord. Fitbits have a silent alarm system that works really well to give you start and stop times.

The results were amazing. Though the body stayed the same, the spirit was refreshed. Physical problems seldom tarnish my happiness these days. It is wonderful.

I was still searching for the solution to the physical stuff, but not too hard. Then a video was suggested in my YouTube feed. I watched it and was floored. I’ll tell you about what I found in the next post.

The Promise of Spring

This is the year. I'm ready to give up on past failures and disasters and start my garden over. Right back where it began. Almost to the centimeter. Maybe I had it right back then...

the 7th of 20 trees...

I should back up a bit. We've lived in this house for 21 years. We have about a third of an acre and I am it's sole gardener. When we moved in my dad warned me that all the trees the previous owner had planted were 'trash trees.' They were too short lived and I should dig them all out. At 28, having never owned a house, I knew far better than my father who grew up on a farm. I mean, I listened a bit, digging out about 20 in the first five years, but the rest were so pretty and placed so well I let them live on. What could it hurt?
Turns out, pretty much everything. Just when I would get one area to a mature, beautiful garden with well- balanced garden beds full of perennials, the major tree would die and all the flowers around it would slowly get smaller and smaller because they had too much light. Even after transplanting them, most would die.

Okay, so this one is from a hiking trip in Red River Gorge
but I didn't get a picture of the dinosaur garden.
It was better than this...

The worst was when the dinosaur garden died. It had hostas 3 feet tall and five feet across with large ferns shooting out between. It looked like a set for The Land of the Lost or Jurassic Park. I loved it. Then we had a wet summer where the drainage from the neighbors house killed off the enormous pear tree that sheltered it. I was so busy taking care of the wreckage of the tree (and others that died that year) that I didn't think about all the perennials. Next year only a few came back. The year after, none.
There was also our neighborhood. In the summer of 2001, due to a combination of a local business strike and their dislike for how we raised our children, all of the neighbors stopped talking to us. Most went out of their way to make sure they didn't see us. This meant I could here people laughing and talking, enjoying one another, while I worked alone in the yard. It felt better to stay inside.
Between my neglect and the continual die off of our trees, the gardens suffered. They never looked awful, but they surely didn't look good. Over the past five years I've been taking the yard back, one small section at a time. The final truly awful spot is right beside our screened in porch.
Fifteen years ago it was the butterfly garden with lilacs, butterfly bushes and butterfly weed. There were red honeysuckle and dutchman's pipes vines. Over the years our neighbor's three foot trimmed hedges grew neglected, eventually reaching over eight feet tall. They shaded out, then eventually killed all the plants on our side. Even after she cut the bushes down to sell the house, all the new plants I tried there died tragic deaths. Depressing. I'd just leave and go work on other areas of the yard where things grew.
Early this January the promise of spring began to grow in my heart. I saw the problem in a different way. What about trying something completely different, or rather, why not go back to the very first garden I ever put in?

The hell strip

When we first moved in, I longed for a huge garden where we could grow all our vegetables. My children would thrive on the produce I grew. (Ah, innocence was bliss). My husband built a beautiful square foot garden box. We put it on the south side of the house for loads of sun. Filled it with the best growing medium (even parts compost, vermiculite and peat moss). Built a trellis out of conduit all by myself (still proud of that one).
My gardening successes were matched by kitchen failures. We discovered that my husband has a food sensitivity to Swiss chard. Of course, since it grew in my garden, I tried to disguise it in smaller amounts in dishes like stuffed shells. Didn't work. Let's just say, he has an amazing Swiss chard detector. Then there was the time that I served him a slug. Not kidding. Alive and moving in his dinner salad.
I became a confirmed flower gardener for many years, strongly encouraged by my husband, the only edibles were basil, cilantro and the odd tomato plant.
This year things are different. These vegetables will be just for me.       Oh, I'll give my husband some if he wants, but it's not a crusade to fix anyone's health or create something beautiful for the neighbors. It is to give me the great pleasure of working the soil and living in the sun.

the square foot garden box is built, but not filled
Who cares, it was fun.

     After a cold winter, today I finally get to sweat in the heat amid the screeches of the mating starlings.
Each little spot gets loving attention, healing the hurts of the past. In the hell strip we created when we wrapped the deck to keep animals out, I get the privilege of nurturing an herb garden. The dead spot from the old bushes, that gets a square foot garden. Things come full circle and I bathe in the eternal sunshine of a spotless mind.

Start Small: I can't believe I left this out!

     I've been teaching the 'Take the Sting out of Stress' class for six years. It is my most requested class. If I get a call from the library or the Y to teach, this is usually the class they choose. So, here I've been, teaching so many times, rewriting so many times, and I left out something of primary importance.... Why not take care of the easy stuff first?
     It all came clear last weekend when I was rewriting my class to teach it at the library. I got a call from a friend. She's in the middle of lots of major life events, some good, some bad, all of them stressful. The problem was, none of them were things she could do anything about other than just keep working and hope it would all be over soon. But she was very distressed, so we needed to come up with something.
      I asked her if I could get back with her in a few minutes. There were papers all over my office- different techniques, old classes, reference books, but none really applied to this situation. It took a few minutes, but the light bulb finally came on. If we couldn't change her stress, and the things I had already taught her weren't enough, we needed to dive deeper. I started thinking about the stress we ignore, the stuff that, like a bread basket at an Italian restaurant, just 'comes with.'
     We come into the world little babies and immediately begin to fuss and wail. Why? What does the baby need to survive? How about once they start to sit up? Go to school? Go to work? There are so many underlying tensions that we just walk around and ignore because we have lived with them for so long, but I remember the crushing stress of my first day at the Naval Academy, things that I barely even noticed by two months into the school year.

     So, I made a video, with definitely home-made illustrations, to demonstrate what I came up with. This one was fun. We follow stick-girl Sally as she is born and grows up, showing the stressors that accumulate as we move through the world.  In the end, the stressors that she can change are food, love, work, and sleep. Though none of these habits are easy to change, a few small amendments to them can give the brain lots more energy to deal with the stress th`at she can't get away from.
     Lest this begin to sound to preachy, I take my own advice. Last week I gave up the nightly glass of wine, often followed by a nightcap. It seemed like the thing to do, since there are lots of other areas I can't get rid of. Once I made the choice it was surprisingly easy to do. Thank goodness I have ten months to practice before the holidays come around. Pray for me.
     If you have any comments, or suggestions for things I left out, please leave them in the comment section below.

A Teacher's Manifesto

   

 "Can't you just man up, or to be a woman, and use your mind to get through things?"- Alex
      This comment on my YouTube video made my day! There were so many answers, so many layers in the question that I couldn't just respond in the comments section.
      It came in when I was working on Finger Tips 2, a questions answered video to respond to emails and comments from my Jin Shin Jyutsu video. The video was a bit boring; question, answer, question, answer. I couldn't make it work, but still felt like it needed to be the next video. Next week's video was infinitely more interesting and fun to make, but I couldn't let go of Finger Tips 2.
       As I played around with his question, my first thought was yes, I can use my mind to get through things. I used it to tell myself to use Jin Shin Jyutsu, right? (Not proud of that response by the way.  Turns out my inner voice is a bit sarcastic.) When I pondered it a bit more I realized that he got right to the heart of why I teach and make these videos.
     Right now, I'm like a baby crawling around on the floor of life. Yes, I get around, but it's not very fast and my knees get really dirty. Using techniques like Jin Shin Jyutsu lets my inner baby pull up on the coffee table and see that there is so much more to be once I learn to walk. One day I will walk around the room freely and only use the coffee table to hold my coffee or teach other babies how to see life's possibilities.
     The question also really helped me to clarify why I do what I do. My desire is to show others how beautiful and powerful they really are. This is where true healing occurs. This is when you become what you truly are.
     As you heal yourself, you change the way you move in the world. Your kindness and gentleness rubs off on those around you. They, in turn, are changed.
      This is our grand opportunity. I make videos and teach classes to help individuals with the sure knowledge that they will pass the relief and happiness on tho those they come in contact with.
      When you control your thoughts and your mind, as Alex suggested, and live your truth, the world becomes a wonderful place to live.

Stand Up! Simple Tips for Improving Confidendce

     I never thought about it much, but at the Naval Academy, if you were being inspected (or possibly, being in trouble) you stood at attention, just like my classmates on the left. If someone was talking or giving you information to remember, you were put at parade rest. To my teenager eyes, parade rest looked a lot like Wonder Woman and felt really silly. Really, stand with your feet spread, elbows wide, hands crossed at the small of your back. How unnatural is that?
     Come to find out, the military knew what it was doing.  Amy Cuddy and her fellow researchers discovered that standing in a powerful position, like Wonder Woman, actually changes your brain chemistry to make you more confident (original publication here). As little as two minutes can boost your testosterone, making you feel more confident and in charge. It also reduces your cortisol. This improves your ability to deal with stressors and decreases anxiety.
     When I went through my photos to create the video, it was actually hard to discard some. I had so many images of both high and low power poses. It is amazing what you can see once someone opens your eyes.
     Her video changed my life in other profound ways. I am so aware of how I sit and stand now. Sometimes it is in that scolding way, you know, the inner voice that nags "stand up straight, shoulders back." More often, it is "look at how you are standing or sitting. That must mean you are uncomfortable here. Need to change that."
      I'll give you an example. I have been taking voice lessons for about three years. I was so incredibly shy about singing in public that joining the choir had ruined my appreciation of the liturgy. Something needed to be done. About six months ago I was having a lesson in the practice spaces of a local music academy.  This meant that everyone could overhear all my mistakes on this difficult peice. I felt wildly out of place. After singing the song for the final time, my teacher said "That is the best I have ever heard you sing." I immediately crossed my legs, crossed my arms and tucked my head down. Basically I got into the lowest power pose I could do without quivering in the corner. It made me realize how far I still have to go.
     Think of body language as a great diagnostic and power posing as the miracle cure. Those admirals knew what they were doing. Who knew?

The World's Most Dangerous Word

"I'll try."

I couldn't believe my ears. The young man standing before me was a tutoring student. He is Japanese and about to go back to Japan to take the college entrance test. The family is spending lots of money and he was taking the test that would determine his future for the next six years and he was going to try.

Normally, I'd let it pass. I'm not his parent only his tutor. But his mother was standing in the room with us and was clearly worried about sending him out to do this important task. His posture did not inspire confidence. You could hear the implied "...and fail" in his statement.

So I treated him like one of my sons and called him on his language. Both he and his mother were bewildered. She even said "Maybe we don't understand what the English word try really means." Rather than explain with words, I pulled out a dining room chair and said "I'm trying to sit down." My behind slowly descended, but never reached the chair. Her face changed in an instant to glowing comprehension, then she began to scold her son. Moments of deep understanding are a precious thing. I felt privileged to witness.

Language is vital.

What we hear becomes what we believe becomes our actions in the world.

The brain hears what we say and makes it real. Does a batter approach the plate and try to hit the ball? Only if he wants to miss. He has a responsibility to the team and will follow through. I was made aware of the weakness of 'try' by Carolyn Nyland of Kaleidoscope Learning Center during a Brain Gym class.

As we learned how movement helps the brain work better, she caught us over and over using the word 'try.' By the end of the three day class, I was hyper aware of how weak our language use was. I resolved to make my life a 'try'-free zone.

The word try is short and sweet. It gets people off our backs. "I'll try to make it." Meaning you won't be there, and please stop asking me. "I'll try this math problem." Yeah, right. It reminds me of running the Turkey Trot about ten years ago. I ran for the last two miles about 20 feet behind a guy dressed in an enormous turkey costume. There were feathers that went from his low back to over his head.

The first thing I did when I went home was find someone to make me a vinyl wall art with Yoda's famous quote "Do or Do not there is no try." It is a great reminder to both myself and my clients that we believe what we say about ourselves.

When the word 'try' walks into your brain and attempts to rent a space, throw him out on his ear.